JFeelgood: There's a lot i'd like to say about this piece, the show itself, though I would rather let it speak for itself. Special thanks to Fatal, Cat, Julie, David, and of course, David Bowie.
Fatal: This was an amazing project and upcoming series created by my good friend JFeelgood. The initial concept for this episode, as explained to us by Jonny was that he wanted everything black and white, and vibe to a record of David Bowie. Although we rehearsed a couple times, the results were deeper than I anticipated. So much symbolism, I feel I had to share my personal take on it: This world full of hate, it seems like everything, especially in this country, is seen in either black or white. Most of us turn to art as a form of release, hence the record player and violinist. As we push through the fog, we are like birds of a feather, as I vibe to music feather in hand, celebrating life even after death, as depicted by the sugar skull mask. Now is the time to find "One's Self", where we stand in controversial issues and how we can live in peace and harmony. Until then, let's come together, embrace our differences for our future generation may be on Mars.
David Smith: How I felt, to start off the project was to try to include as much of everyone's input, as I could. Though I was not the "director" of the set, I feel that working the camera, gives me a sense of sovereignty, to what the film portrays. It was what I looked at, in "my" sense, and everyone was portrayed through my looking glass. I also felt like I was in a minute sense, dancing around between Cat, Fatal, and JFeelgood, mentally at least. I do not, did not, want to put my foot in my mouth. I liked Fatal's dress, her ideas around the set, and she is very good looking; I think that Cat is attractive, and I liked the mask she was wearing; I "know" JFeelgood, tho there is barely any memory there, but I want to do right by him, and we both want me to channel my inner creator; Julie is kind of an unknown to me, but she is pretty, and seems nice. As much as it was an accident, I liked that me stepping on the fog machine button was at a "good timing," and I personally like that I did not know how to turn the camera off, so I finished the shoot with an addition of "Me." I think that that addition to the film, is a good way to wrap it up, because it adds a lot of character to everybody involved, by them unknowingly adding into the shoot. I like the urge to create when I am with JFeelgood. I have more of a desire to start to finish my book, and start drawing now. There are boundless possibilities, as to what I can create and do, and helping them out, is a driving force to do them! I like this addition to my motivation a lot, and to me, it is almost crazy, that I feel my "drive" is being increased. I have been called a "driven individual" by a lot of my acquaintainces. I think that time is a luxury, a luxury that I do not usually have, as I will forget to do something. This is an improvement in me, and I strive to improve the things that I use to function, as a step in my recovery. The physical boundaries were a bit sketchy to keep track of, as they were not really marked, but the easy way to do it was to stay on an individual. Keep it down, and caution on JFeelgood or Julie. The other trying part was who to have on the camera, for how long, and for what. Even now, I still have that rhythm in my mind: 5 sec on Julie, pan to JFeelgood, get up on the cards, retreat a bit but stay on him, then pan back, get a group angle, then close ups on them as they dance, hope to finish on a group shot.. I enjoyed Fatal's pointing out how to minimize the negative space on the photos. I tried to keep that down. Someone also said a thing about the energy, so I tried to be a conduit of that. I wanted to keep the camera moving, to collect the energy that everyone was giving off. I wanted the film to be a conduit of that chi. I liked how energetic that Fatal was being, with her dancing, I liked the mask that Catherine was wearing, the violin was awesome in the film and Julie added a lot to the entire set, JFeelgood was a solid and stoic person to have speaking. I liked his "expressions," while flipping the cards. As for my impressions of the shoot: it was a "neat knot," out of many "threads," from everyone, to get a thing done in a way that everyone was "happy" with. I liked it a lot, when I have gone back and listened/watched it. I was not able to really pay attention to what was being said, while filming. My attention was the camera angle, and I did not even realize that I was stepping on the fog machine button, halfway through it. I was not "aware" of the fog. I do not have the awareness, to include the multiple facets of what all is going on, when I am focusing on doing something, to the degree that I felt I did that at. I like the job I did. Hell, I almost forgot to stay on JFeelgood, after the cards, while he spoke. There is a glimmer of a shift in the angle, as I was about to start panning out, realized/remembered to keep it there, then stayed on him. It was "trying" to me, but I liked what my "effort" wrought out of this. Now everyone said that they liked the piece, but I cannot really say if they may have had misgivings. Nor does it really bother me, if they did, unless it was about the quality of my job. I do not know them well enough, so I will take this at face value, and believe what I have heard them say. I do not think any would lie to me, us, I didn't pick up any duality in their speech, and we did a really bang up, kick ass job! This is a win, in my book!
#JFeelgoodLIVE Episode 002
#JFeelgood Episode 002
JFeelgood: I struggled with this theme quite a bit, in how to represent it well and from a place that could land well with all that experienced the moment with us (cast and audience alike). Inequality is such a touchy subject and runs deeply into the salts of wounds of man throughout all facets of social and economic foundations. I am well aware of having been bequeathed genetically the baring of white privilege and being male, in a world that is largely crippled by colorism, sexism, religious discrimination, and while I am in no position to ever speak on the hurt and struggle that any of my friends or fellow peoples of the world have endured in this great experience, I CAN most certainly be keen on doing more towards having empathy, as well as, be a proponent of empowering others to be vessels of creation in all of their endeavors. At the end of the day, I believe in people and their goodness in the great way of the universe unfolding. While as an artist, I may not always see the true values of my work, others may find great inspiration, and for that reason alone, it is every artist's obligation to be such a vessel, for it may be the difference between life and death for some peoples out there. I love all of you, thank you for giving me reasons to explore this life in new and wonderful ways.
Fatal: This episode starts with the ringing of a bell, the liberty bell, the American symbol of independence, just days after our nation celebrated the 4th of July, a day where the we rejoice in patriotism, proudly waving our red, white, and blue as rendered by our lighting. However these colors have transformed into signs of Americans' political stance; Republicans red, Democrats blue, and the recently added term to describe young liberals, snowflakes, as they made evident in the video. Many are fighting for a equality, for rights, for our lives and here we are divided by red, blue, white, black, brown...and orange. But, as JFeelgood begs the questions, what are colors with the lights out? Would we rather see them or live in darkness?
David: It was a bit easier to get into the swing of things for this shoot. I really liked meeting the new people that worked with us. To me, this is a nice addition, to helping out with #JfeelgoodLIVE. I gain, from interacting with more people, and wading through their idiosyncrasies, towards their "persons." Hobbies, and what one wants to do, are good starts. Katarina is awesome. She is very nice, and I felt like she was trying to grow her awareness of everything too, but in a different way. Hannah was cool, in a quiet, yet funny way. I liked her get up for the film. To me, that idea shows a lot of creativity... Jacob was a wealth of knowledge about lighting, and had a lot of ideas about this shoot, that helped it. I feel like I did not really interact much with Adrian, but I liked his positive spirit in the shoot. I loved Fatal's energy in this, again, she is amazing. I also had some thoughts that I wanted to add to what Jfeelgood said in regards to, "equality is an illusion". So is perfection, as far as being an illusion goes. Though we try and try, to attain it, life is a matter or point of view, and relativity. I enjoyed this shoot more than the last one, because I felt like there was more input from everyone else, toward the final outcome.
Hannah: My experience working with JFeelgood was very laid back but also a lot of fun! His vision was easy to follow and his message was very simple and clear. I look forward to working with him again!
Katarina: It was a lot of fun getting to meet some new creative people and really just sitting in the moment with everyone!
#JFeelgoodLIVE Episode 003
#JFeelgood Episode 003
JFeelgood: I spend a lot of time thinking about what to cover in my next episodes, there are so many topics that could be addressed.
*Depression and how it's a very real thing (Whoever you are out there reading this, please know you ARE loved!). *Transmen/women and how they are people too with wants, dreams, and needs like anyone else. *Whatever new unconventional and highly unorthodox outburst the person currently holding office as President of our beloved USA. *Why no one is talking about the drone that dropped a thermite grenade into a ammunition depot of Balakliya, Ukraine.
While these are all either important or trending, I felt moved to cover something a little more close to home for the human self, the connections we have with one another or relationships in general. I wanted to end with something beautiful, also. Lately I've been rocking out to the soundtrack for Guardians of the Galaxy, which is what led us to select the song Ooga-Chaka, after I asked Fatal to surprise me with one off the list. She created this marvelous outfit which reminds me of old theater and the way she dances wearing it reminds me of celebrating life's sweet moments, something we could and should all do a little more of.
Fatal: This episode hit close to home for me. It took a few long term relationships, ghosted friendships, and a 3 year marriage to learn life lessons. I no longer have expectations for others as it will only set myself up for disappointment. Not everyone will treat me the way I treat them, so I've lessened the effort I exert if not reciprocated. Time is of great value, enough to be calculated and monetized. Therefore, I deeply cherish and appreciate those who choose to graciously invest theirs with mine. And most importantly, I'm content with being alone. Art keeps me company. Creating and listening music stimulates my thoughts and emotional release. And I refuse to allow anyone to rob me of my personal therapy.
David: I liked this episode a lot! I feel like it was maybe a bit off of the top, but still came through with a strong message, and it was beautiful in the way that we portrayed it! I like the message, it made me think of a movie and multiple music notes.